When I Think Back...

When I think back -

I wonder how I made it this far.

And then I am reminded of God's love for me.

　

When I think back -

I see guilt and shame and want to hide my face.

And then I feel the presence of God in my life.

　

When I think back -

I regret broken relationships and family ties.

And then I see God working in my life to give me new friends I can call family.

　

When I think back -

I mourn for my losses.

And then I know that God meant for me to lose certain things so I would know the value of all I do have.

　

When I think back -

I weep for lost dreams.

And then I see those same dreams beginning to manifest themselves in my life today.

　

When I think back -

I see a broken person, spiritually bankrupt and suffering.

And then I look in the mirror and see the wonderful being God has created.

　

When I think back -

I see a life of resentment and bitterness.

And then I see me facing my future filled with hope and love.

　

When I think back -

I notice how different things were without God.

And then I look at what unfolds itself day by day and wonder where I was all my life... and secretly know that I was always in the presence of God whether I chose to acknowledge it or not.

　

So when I think back now -

It is a good thing.

It shows me how far I have come and especially how far I can go if I keep my eyes on God and try to live His will, not mine.